as odd as it sounds, i’m one of those people who everyone likes. i can get along with pretty much anyone therefore i have several different groups of friends all of which are completely unique, yet i fit in with every single one of them.
usually this isn’t an issue or a problem for me, in fact i kind of love it because i always have something to do and i normally get exposed to lots of different lifestyles, which is cool as fuck. but…there are those rare occasions where shit overlaps and i have to turn some people down sometimes. again, normally it’s not that big of a deal. but apparently this weekend it was. people’s feelings got hurt, and now we’re not speaking, i apologized, haven’t heard back, don’t know what to do.
i hate people being mad at me. what i hate even more, and actually more than anything, is not having complete control over a situation. and i have done everything i can to try and fix it. now i just have to wait. this sucks. i’ve always pretty much bent over backwards to make other people happy because i never want to get into fights or conflicts. well…it’s fucking exhausting. and sometimes i need to do what i want to do and put myself first. that doesn’t make me a bad person.
it’s pretty much impossible to go through life without disappointing someone or making them mad or hurting their feelings. guess now it’s my turn. ugh. i just want it to be over.
regardless, i am not going to spread myself too thin at the expense of my own sanity.
haven’t had a rant via tumblr in a while…hmm…
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